i like my me time.

i must apologise for not being here recently, but now when i have my long showers & the thoughts flow… by the time i get out and settle at my lap pie, i just want to read my book or zone out in front of the mindless tv that i thoroughly love. but i’m thinking to make it good practice and give it a go @ least once on the weekend. so on that note, here is what i’ve thought most of this weekend… as it draws to a close.

so another bank holiday weekend aka long weekend has come to an end in lovely Londontown. one thing i can count on is at least 1 guaranteed grey rainy day. i know i have said numerous times that i love rainy days. i love the lazy feel, the cosy feel, the clean feel as the rain washes all the dog shit off the pavement. but most of all i love it on a bank holiday because it means i don’t need to  prepare an excuse to do what i am most comfortable doing – chilling with myself. now that sounds a bit obnoxious but the reality is when my big sis and i say “i don’t like people.”  it is actually an honest statement.

people, i am not a fan of. people are the things that cause the dramas in life – with miscommunication, with emotions, with ‘taking things personal’, with having insecurities, with having heartaches, with loving and with dying. people are hard work. hard work that is inevitable once you are a part of this world. don’t get me wrong, i do love being part of this world, but i like all the other parts like nature, more than dealing with people. i mean people are interesting and do make the journey more entertaining but when i am dealing with myself, i don’t have to think twice about what i want to do, or how i want to do or when i want to do. i just do, i can do the really fun things like masturbate as soon as the thought comes to me or not have to be concerned about brushing my teeth as soon as i wake cause i’m not talking in nobody face or not have to share the bottle of wine and therefore can be caveman-ial about it and just drink from the neck if i wish… i am a lady who enjoys holding a wine glass. but the point is, i could if i want to.

so give me 3 days where i can stay in my house  where people won’t ask & i won’t have to answer, what you doing for bank holiday weekend? simply because well it rainy, so it’s ok to say i’m staying home and everyone expects that. cause apparently in London, one must always do something with this extra day off. i ask – why?!?!?  why can’t i just use it as another day to sit and chill in my house or go for a walk, or read a book i been meaning to read, or clean the house with less time constraints.

i’ve enjoyed these 3 days of chilling by myself and not really interacting with the outside world. i mean i barely even saw my flatmates, which in itself is pretty normal, they have opposite hours, but with an extra day you run the risk of seeing them.

i’ve enjoyed waking up, drinking coffee, eating some frosted mini wheats and just staying in my bed, reading while watching all my downloads. and it has been bliss. i’ve even made sure i did 2 a day work outs. i’ve got a mission to return to my ‘sexy body’ for the upcoming family wedding. my mother & my aunt informed me that i cannot embarrass them in front of the non-family invited to the wedding, which means when we hit the beach over the wedding weekend, they must all be in awe of the sexy dancer body – that i used to have! i eh know if they gonna get their demands but i will try cause god knows i am a woman who expects the same of myself. i say this as i’ve just ordered pizza & potato wedges @ 9:15pm… but you know – 1 life to live… ssssooo YOLO!!! 

most importantly, having spent the last 3 days with myself and catching up on mindless television, and reading the free cheesy romance novels  on my kindle. i have loved every minute of the time i have spent with myself and happy i did it, because for the next 3 weekends, i get a break and then another weekend and then 2 weeks with the family @ home. i’m gonna need to store up on the me time… because i’m gonna be inundated with people and therefore have to ensure that i keep my dislike to a minimum – smile and play nice.

at least the good thing is with the exception of next sunday, all the other times i have to see people, i have guaranteed that minus the fact that they are people – i will be surrounded by ones i do like.

bless. xoxo.